Every Night I Have The Same Dream
I am falling in a hole
I keep falling
With the end beckoning
My Alarm saves me each time by 8am.
Today, I see Alisha at school again,
I think she smiled at me, I don’t know.
Alisha has been my neighbor for four years now
Alisha never says more than two lines to me.
I am that Song you skipped and realized it was fire
I am that ghost walking amongst humans
I am that piece of art, broken, meaningless
I am that unfinished work that could turn out great
I don’t know what I am
I just want this to stop.
Last night I turned off the Alarm
I wanted to reach the end of the hole
I got dressed in my best to bed
I told my single mother I love her.
I tell her because I don't know if I'll ever get the chance to
I am falling.
It feels different this time
It feels final
I can see the end
I smile, as I stretch out my arms to embrace this utter silence.
I hear my name.
I keep my eyes closed..almost there..almost there..
I remember the preacher, The one from the mid-week services Mama use to force me to attend.
My mind’s eye sees him now.
He’s talking to me, Asking me to say what the verse says
I know what the verse says.
I say it. I say “For I know the thoughts I have of you, thoughts of good and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope”
I feel something…Light
I leave the Hole
I wake up this morning to my alarm I made sure I put off yesterday.
And for the first time, I look forward to mid-week service tomorrow.
I might even talk to Alisha,
I will let you know.
Faith Nwani is a 300level Law student of OAU Making the world a better place one person at a time